Sunday, September 15, 2013

Fame & Autism Documentary Idea

Hello everyone

It's been a while since I last wrote a blog post talking about what's going on with me.

Lately I have been more and openly honest about how I feel about things in life and on YouTube which is a bold and brave moves but lucky though I showed a don't give a fuck attitude towards things as it helped out.

I did a video talking about saying I don't want the YouTube fame and glory. I just want to enjoy my life to the best of my ability. With me getting older its not worth chasing certain things but as long I felt it was easy to achieve.

For those wanting to see the video here is the link - 

I was worried about the reaction I have to admit but I was dead wrong about the reactions. It turns out people were very understanding about the situation.

The reason I wore a hoodie for the video was that I remembered watching a documentary about CM Punk and his career so far up to 2012 and I remembered when they were talking about the points leading to the promo that changed everything he wore a hoodie and talked with real honesty that you can feel his energy and his anger about what was happening. Also it actually helped me to be upfront. It is strange that clothing can help you out haha.

I'm really proud of the video "Fuck Being YouTube Famous" and I will never forget it for what I say and how people have reacted in a way I never expected.

Thank you everyone.

OK I have been thinking about doing a documentary to give myself a certain achievement. I remember the other day with people saying there should a documentary on Female Youtubers then I thought it would be good then people would suggest that you have to be a bit careful and have connections to do this idea. I thought they were right, during one of the conversations my friend Charlie (Not Charlie McDonnell) mentioned Autism within an idea for the original idea.

Right it gave me another idea that I wanted to do a documentary about Autism and people think it is an excellent idea and some would help out. This is fantastic and I was wondering how to get around it. What issues should be explored and if it needed crowd funding or not. They are questions I have been thinking about a lot to do this.

I am happy that people have been giving me feedback on the issues and that I should do crowd funding if it is done right.

Anyway I'm going to give it some more thought into the documentary and if you reading, you can leave me feedback on twitter, Facebook or email if you have any of them.

Take care everyone


Thursday, June 13, 2013

Looking back at first 6 months of 2013

Hello everyone

The first half of the year has gone really fast and I can't believe it has come around so fast it is so amazing and realising that getting older does mean time goes a lot quicker. Depends what your outlook is but to me it has gone quickly.

There are 3 things that have totally surprised this year

1) My 30th birthday turned out to be a total blast indeed. Earlier on in the year I almost left YouTube because of business stuff and me hating the corporation machine as some people would say. It was brilliant that I had friends who helped me out and some people may have misunderstood that they thought I was taking them for a ride, I was not at all just some people thinking they know what's going on. I'm going off point, once my 30th arrived it turned into one of the best birthdays I ever had as I was able to go down to Brighton with my best mates for bowling, pub and usual fun we have. I got to say the Office boxset that my folks got me was one of the best presents up there with Sherlock series 2. Great day overall.

2) Going to 10 Downing Street just last month was an icing on the cake. It turned it was going to be my second time there. It turned I went there when I was 5 and can't remember until my mum told before I headed out the door to head to London. It was part of the IF campaign to end world hunger. I went with Lindsay, Charlie, Chris, Lizzie and Jourdan to hand in a petition with Save The Children. I kept on thinking of Reservoir Dogs that day. I did a video of the day and it was fun making and being at the event. Really proud of Lindsay and Charlie and everyone who wanted this to happen. Being in Hyde Park last weekend for the big rally was brilliant too. Emotional too

Finally 3) My final Bath gathering went off like a calm blue ocean. Don't worry there are sure to be more of them in the future. It was a great day to be with Youtubers again even though I saw them back in March for Bristol one, it felt like 6 months later instead of 3. Being by the Royal Crescent is always a highlight even though the gathering can be remembered as nearly everyone got sunburnt either face or their arms. I got it worst and wont talk about what happened the next week at Hyde Park for the rally.

It has been a fun year so far and full of surprises. Don't take anything for granted.

Speak to you later.

I hope to get "The Last Of Us" later today



Thursday, April 11, 2013

Being Busy. Good and Bad!

Hey everyone

It's been a long time since I have done a post and I have said that before haha.

I discovered that Blogger is now on the iPad and now I can do it without putting on my laptop every single time.

I'm over what happened earlier this year with me leaving YouTube altogether for those wondering and feeling in a great mood but sometimes stress does kick in when it comes to being busy.

For the last 18 months I have been busy nearly everyday doing something whether it is work with my job at Tescos, voluntary work in Shoreham dong audio editing and voluntary work in London to help out autistic people. It's really crazy.

Last year I decided to cut back from one of my voluntary jobs because of train fares and amount of work that was done in a really quick time.

I remember having two different chats a while ago and they both told me on separate occasions that it is ok to be doing something every day and the days go quicker. That is true to a degree but sometimes when you are busy for so long that you get used to it, that it can be slow or can destroy you mentality.

A couple of weeks I felt a lot stress from doing a different job every day for a few weeks ago and felt I needed a day off to get rid of the stress. Lucky though I had a surprise visit from an uncle I ain't seen in years. It was great seeing him again.

Over the course of time when sorting out job stuff, I had a chat with my best mate and he said to cut back on my other voluntary job to once every 2 weeks which is a brilliant idea. This would also help with my other voluntary job in Shoreham if they need me on Thursdays which they did today early in the morning.

The disadvantage of not being busy is that days are long and boring. You feel you haven't achieved anything at all. Makes you feel empty. So to me I need to find the right balance which I hope to soon. It will take time.

Thanks for reading